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♥Raihah♥

August1990

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Friday, September 29, 2006 @ 10:00 AM

hmm.hmm.....
im sleepy when im typing this....
well, things goin mad inside me...
i've been crying alot the whole dae of yesterdae...
coz i didnt mit him...
he doesnt sound care at all...
or maybe he's hiding his feelings...
but i was hurt with all his werds yesterdae...
im reali hurt that i cud feel the pain inside...
i duno what to do,
so i open up my laptop and play my favourite
song...then tot of cheering him up,
i called him up with my low ppaid in my hp...
i wan him to listen...but what i got is the
shit from him....am i rong?
why must everything change?
i just feel lyk wanting to get out of his life...
just hoping that he wud be hapi without me...
he got his fwens...but me?
im onli holding the small kitty that he gave me...
the small soft toy kitty that cud not do anything..
but juz cud remind me of him....
haiz...did i do anything?

haiz..just now, another shit just came out...
Nana checked my fwenster fer me and i got
to know that his beloved ex msg me...
haiz...he alreadi told me not to add this gal as my fwen...
but i was stubborn that i just add this gal...
i knew it..i knew that this gal will msg me..
haiz...im juz afraid that if i contact her, Rafi
will fall fer her back...bcoz i know that he used
to love her alot...am i rong?
why must all this happen now?
Why must everything that hapen now,
are all rong in his eyes...?
i noe im alreadi too long fer him...
he need to get on with his own life...
i have to let him go...But i love him alot...
why can he bear with his fwens but not me?
i noe i have all negatives atitude...
but why cant he bear with me?
when i told him that im too stupid to understand
all this problems, he totally agreed with that..
he should at least console me when im feeling that wae...

he must have tired with me...
tired with my face...
tired with my jokes...
tired with my smile...
tired with my nonsense...
tired of everything...
tired with my love...
i duno how to make my love as new as how i
met him fer the first time...

everything changed...
but i do not wan my relationship to come to
an end....

Monday, September 25, 2006 @ 4:27 PM

i was not quite well fer past few daes...
yesterdae was the first dae of fasting..
it was quite hard fer me..
hehe...helped dad alot with the curtains, drillings..
haiz...but it was fun thoug..

hmm...
i wana apologise to Rafi Coz i displayed
his pics and his fwens pic...
Sowie Sayang...
its juz that,
i viewed Rahno's profile
and there it poped ur face...cant stand it..
i wana grab any wae i can..
hehe...
love you sayang...

i wana apologise about yesterdae...
i was not quite in a bad mood...
i stayed at home all dae...
i juz hoped that you would just inform
me if you were to go anywhere...
im sorry if im controlling you too much...

hmm...
just hope that hari raya wud be tomoro...
hehe...money$ money$ money$

no lah...im just hoping that i wud pass my n lvl
with reali reali the flying colors...
my mom and dad just hope that i wud fail...
they will get me out of the house...
haiz...

hmm..reali got nothink much to write...
alot actuali...
but nvm...
see you again bloggy....

btw, duno when i'll blog again...
N is cumin yarr....

@ 4:05 PM

haha..juz put all these pics fer fun..
this is my Dear...

hehe....Grab this pic from ur fwen's fwenster...

I love your Stares..!!!!

@ 4:00 PM

We Took Pics First after the hand-over...

Just wish to disturb the Juniors in taking their
Squad photo...

These was what we got fer our Passing Out
Sourveniors...

SIs With Chris

Cant Stand Still....!!

Nana Taking the Best-Unit-Cadet Plug

Me taking the Trophy of our Best Improved
Campcraft...

Friday, September 22, 2006 @ 9:53 AM

hmph..
i juz need him now..
need him to be like how we used to be..
things just change now..
i noe im ugly...
that's right..i am ugly...
what i have now is just a piece of heart which
is there to love him...
Love him with all my heart...
i juz failed to be a good galfwen to him...
other peeps out there can make him more
hapi and make him smile fer real..
peeps who can give him life...
a reali meaningful life...
haiz....

whoever out there who can tell me
what im suppose to do...
what must i do to my life?
why must this be happening to me?
i do not wish this to be a big matter
till i came it out to my blog...
its just that i need him to read this and understand
what im having right now...

you cant just let me face all this all alone...
i need you by my side...
i just need you to face this fear with me...
i told you this a million times,
i am weak...
i'll be weaker without you..
haiz....

what you promised, you wont do it...
thats what you told me...
if you cant even do a simple promise,
how are you gona make OUR promise meaningful?

you treat me like a Princess...
And you make me feel that im beautiful...
you make me someone who can see what love is...
you cant juz take all my life awae juz bcoz i can
live before you came to my life?

that's rong...!!!
i love you fer hu you are...
you cant leave me...
you're my life...
everyone in my family noes you...
you're nice...
and to me, you're cute...
you alwaes make me smile and laugh...
you make me love you till i
can miss you like crazy...
how can you take my happiness awae!
haiz....

please make our love as nice as how it used
to be....

Thursday, September 21, 2006 @ 6:33 PM

i just miss our times together..

Friday, September 01, 2006 @ 4:03 PM

my life now, im not even sure...
i tink tat im veri bad...
reali bad fer hurting him...
its not that i left him....
but i know that im hurting him...
emotionally nw...
he's sufering...bcoz of me...
i noe i lied a lot...
no one want sto be cheated...
but i lied alot and he still loves me...stil gives me chances...
thank you fer everythink sayang...
i reali love you and hope wecud firgive each
other sincerely....
muacks....