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Monday, July 31, 2006 @ 1:38 AM
story of my life
searching for the right
but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company
he's more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because i'm gone again
and to him i just can't be true
and i know that he knows i'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside to know
that i am happy with some other guy
i can see him dying
i don't wanna do this anymore
i don't wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i don't wanna hurt him anymore
i don't wanna take away his life
i don't wanna be...a murderer
i feel it in the air as i'm doing my hair preparing
for another day a kiss up on my cheek
he's here reluctantly as if i'm gonna be out late
i say i won't be long just hanging with the girls
a lie i didn't have to tell
because we both know where i'm about to go
and we know it very well
cause i know that he knows
i'm unfaithful and it kills him inside
to know that i am happy with some other guy
i can see him dying
i don't wanna do this anymore
i don't wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i don't wanna hurt him anymore
i don't wanna take away his life
i don't wanna be... a murderer
our love, his trust i might as well take a gun
and put it to his head get it over with
i don't wanna do this anymore (anymore)
i don't wanna do this anymore
i don't wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i don't wanna hurt him anymore
i don't wanna take away his life
i don't wanna be...a murderer (a murderer)
no no no no yeah yeah yeah
searching for the right
but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company
he's more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because i'm gone again
and to him i just can't be true
and i know that he knows i'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside to know
that i am happy with some other guy
i can see him dying
i don't wanna do this anymore
i don't wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i don't wanna hurt him anymore
i don't wanna take away his life
i don't wanna be...a murderer
i feel it in the air as i'm doing my hair preparing
for another day a kiss up on my cheek
he's here reluctantly as if i'm gonna be out late
i say i won't be long just hanging with the girls
a lie i didn't have to tell
because we both know where i'm about to go
and we know it very well
cause i know that he knows
i'm unfaithful and it kills him inside
to know that i am happy with some other guy
i can see him dying
i don't wanna do this anymore
i don't wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i don't wanna hurt him anymore
i don't wanna take away his life
i don't wanna be... a murderer
our love, his trust i might as well take a gun
and put it to his head get it over with
i don't wanna do this anymore (anymore)
i don't wanna do this anymore
i don't wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i don't wanna hurt him anymore
i don't wanna take away his life
i don't wanna be...a murderer (a murderer)
no no no no yeah yeah yeah
@ 1:05 AM
last 2 daes which was the 29th,
was our anni...13th month...
tot of miting him...but he was werkin...then ask dad
if i can go out at around 7pm...dad didnt let me...
so, he told me to pospone it to the next dae...
which was yesterdae..i duno wat happen to my dad's mood,
that he ask me to ask Rafi along fer breakfast at Bestari...Bt Batok...
oh my...i ask and ask Rafi alort of times...but haiz...
he refused..at last! he agreed...
actuali, behind this story, there's alort of things happen between us...
i juz dowan to think about it again...
hmm...so we went out...he waited fer me and my family somewhere
near that eating place...he came to us with a smile...
hmm..he had chicken rice and tea...while i had chicken noodle..
My favourite! Then my dad ask2 him some unimportant stuffs like
where he stays before this..wadever all larh...
then, my mom make me so blush like teling him my stupid eating
habit all..then, sae that i'll finish all those chicken feets that specially
ordered fer themselves...hehe..well, its kinda weird eating infront
of him with my family there...i've eaten with him before but with my parents?
NoNoNo..hehe...hmm..wad else...we finish our breakfast at around 10am...
but he's with his slipper..hehe...cute larr my syg...
he bought ferr me Jeans...i Reali like it..i've been looking fer that kind fer
veri veri long...hehe..
Thanks SaYang...
we went to town after that..to look fer hp keychain fer
my mom...at last, we found it at Heeran...
after that we took neoprints...in the middle of that
pic taking oso wana quarrel...haha...
then, we go jalan2...he bought fer me famous amos...
hmmmmmm..Nice and crunchie...! Muah!
we ate at long john...then we went to PS...
walk walk walk until we got ourselve so tired...
hehe...memorable...
he sae im cute alort of times...but i sae he's hendsome onli once!
when he's angri..actuali, euu duno how many time i sae euu handsome!
hehe..hmm...i think i'll stop...thanks fer reading...hehe...
was our anni...13th month...
tot of miting him...but he was werkin...then ask dad
if i can go out at around 7pm...dad didnt let me...
so, he told me to pospone it to the next dae...
which was yesterdae..i duno wat happen to my dad's mood,
that he ask me to ask Rafi along fer breakfast at Bestari...Bt Batok...
oh my...i ask and ask Rafi alort of times...but haiz...
he refused..at last! he agreed...
actuali, behind this story, there's alort of things happen between us...
i juz dowan to think about it again...
hmm...so we went out...he waited fer me and my family somewhere
near that eating place...he came to us with a smile...
hmm..he had chicken rice and tea...while i had chicken noodle..
My favourite! Then my dad ask2 him some unimportant stuffs like
where he stays before this..wadever all larh...
then, my mom make me so blush like teling him my stupid eating
habit all..then, sae that i'll finish all those chicken feets that specially
ordered fer themselves...hehe..well, its kinda weird eating infront
of him with my family there...i've eaten with him before but with my parents?
NoNoNo..hehe...hmm..wad else...we finish our breakfast at around 10am...
but he's with his slipper..hehe...cute larr my syg...
he bought ferr me Jeans...i Reali like it..i've been looking fer that kind fer
veri veri long...hehe..
Thanks SaYang...
we went to town after that..to look fer hp keychain fer
my mom...at last, we found it at Heeran...
after that we took neoprints...in the middle of that
pic taking oso wana quarrel...haha...
then, we go jalan2...he bought fer me famous amos...
hmmmmmm..Nice and crunchie...! Muah!
we ate at long john...then we went to PS...
walk walk walk until we got ourselve so tired...
hehe...memorable...
he sae im cute alort of times...but i sae he's hendsome onli once!
when he's angri..actuali, euu duno how many time i sae euu handsome!
hehe..hmm...i think i'll stop...thanks fer reading...hehe...
Monday, July 24, 2006 @ 12:55 AM
my school had this veri veri big event last fridae...
it was Spectrum...
it was held in Ngee Ann Poly...
Abt 1800 ppl was there...
hmm...1900 seats in total...
good rite! haiz...
we went in 3s...me, nana and Diyana...
Rafi send us to Poly...
i was hapi but then there's some misunderstanding
between us...
first we planned to go over to nana's place...
to make Diyana veri veri beautiful...
hehe...but then it turned out to be shit...
haiz...it was cancelled the veri last lat minute...
whwn me n rafi was otw to nana's place...
with no make-up in me!!
argh!! not juz that..rafi's reali mad at me when he saw
me wit my short skirt...
oh my..this is hell!
but then, eveerything turn out to be great back...
as pernormal...
rafi sas that he wans me to have fun...
and doesnt wana scold me animore coz dun wana spoil
my mood to a concert....
hehe...my sayang still lkove me alort...
thanks...
after spectrum,which ends at around 2130hr, i met him...
hehe...it was sweet! muax!
it was Spectrum...
it was held in Ngee Ann Poly...
Abt 1800 ppl was there...
hmm...1900 seats in total...
good rite! haiz...
we went in 3s...me, nana and Diyana...
Rafi send us to Poly...
i was hapi but then there's some misunderstanding
between us...
first we planned to go over to nana's place...
to make Diyana veri veri beautiful...
hehe...but then it turned out to be shit...
haiz...it was cancelled the veri last lat minute...
whwn me n rafi was otw to nana's place...
with no make-up in me!!
argh!! not juz that..rafi's reali mad at me when he saw
me wit my short skirt...
oh my..this is hell!
but then, eveerything turn out to be great back...
as pernormal...
rafi sas that he wans me to have fun...
and doesnt wana scold me animore coz dun wana spoil
my mood to a concert....
hehe...my sayang still lkove me alort...
thanks...
after spectrum,which ends at around 2130hr, i met him...
hehe...it was sweet! muax!
@ 12:36 AM
hey..have not been updating my blog for 3 weeks!
but don't worry guys...have been checking it..
loooking fer nice2 skins fer my baby blog...
juz back frm PE...
where got such things as PE lesson at 2.10PM??
hehee..but we gals choose to chit chat than doin our PE...
we talked alort abt this gal in our class...
not gossip but actuali talkk2 arh...
this gal juz cheat on someone's money...
thats what i heard...
haiz..why must this kinda ppl exist in this world...
alah..it's an unfair worl anywae...
wadeva larhhh...what goes around comes around...
so, its a fair world after all...
hehe...
hmm...juz now student counsellor came to me...
actuali she came to me twice..
the first time was last week...
she ask me something like, 'are looks everything to you'
then i juz ans no...all those lame craps larh...
hmm....juz now recess time, she told me that there's a meeting fer
those hu were interviewed last week...
at 4pm ltr..hehe..now is 3.45pm...
hope im not late...
yaii...yaii...have been wondering what is it abt...
but that counsellor reali reali dun wana tell me...
haiz...wadeva k! at least i'll be showing my bloody face there...
that's responsible enuf k...
haiz...
but don't worry guys...have been checking it..
loooking fer nice2 skins fer my baby blog...
juz back frm PE...
where got such things as PE lesson at 2.10PM??
hehee..but we gals choose to chit chat than doin our PE...
we talked alort abt this gal in our class...
not gossip but actuali talkk2 arh...
this gal juz cheat on someone's money...
thats what i heard...
haiz..why must this kinda ppl exist in this world...
alah..it's an unfair worl anywae...
wadeva larhhh...what goes around comes around...
so, its a fair world after all...
hehe...
hmm...juz now student counsellor came to me...
actuali she came to me twice..
the first time was last week...
she ask me something like, 'are looks everything to you'
then i juz ans no...all those lame craps larh...
hmm....juz now recess time, she told me that there's a meeting fer
those hu were interviewed last week...
at 4pm ltr..hehe..now is 3.45pm...
hope im not late...
yaii...yaii...have been wondering what is it abt...
but that counsellor reali reali dun wana tell me...
haiz...wadeva k! at least i'll be showing my bloody face there...
that's responsible enuf k...
haiz...
Tuesday, July 18, 2006 @ 12:23 AM
hmm.things hav been gd...
we both decided to still be together..
dun wan break larh..
wat sia...
love him so munch!!
so, we've decided not to break on
end of july...
i cant bear to let him go actually....
dun you ever leave me k syg....
hmm...hope we can last as long as we can...
we both decided to still be together..
dun wan break larh..
wat sia...
love him so munch!!
so, we've decided not to break on
end of july...
i cant bear to let him go actually....
dun you ever leave me k syg....
hmm...hope we can last as long as we can...
Sunday, July 16, 2006 @ 4:13 AM
Itukah dia kekasih yang pernah berjanji
Memberi cinta untukmu sepenuh hati
Ia akan menyesal suatu hari nanti
Apabila ia mengetahui
Kekasihmu ini ingin kembali
Tahukah engkau ia tak sepadan denganmu
Walau beribu bisik pujuknya merayu
Kekasihmu ini terlalu ingin kembali
Sejak ia mengetahui
Kekasihmu itu selalu membuat kau bersedih
Oh kekasihmu ini akan merasa gembira
Andai dapat bersama untuk selama-lama
Hanya untuk menyayangimu
Hanya untuk bercinta lagi
Andai engkau berduka
Aku yang pertama di sisi
Andai engkau bahagia
Akukan terus berdoa
Semoga suatu masa
Pintu hatimukan terbuka
Dan kita akan kembali
Bercinta lagi
Aku akan kembali
Walau jalan berliku
Kernaku kekasihmu
Hingga ke akhir hayat
Memberi cinta untukmu sepenuh hati
Ia akan menyesal suatu hari nanti
Apabila ia mengetahui
Kekasihmu ini ingin kembali
Tahukah engkau ia tak sepadan denganmu
Walau beribu bisik pujuknya merayu
Kekasihmu ini terlalu ingin kembali
Sejak ia mengetahui
Kekasihmu itu selalu membuat kau bersedih
Oh kekasihmu ini akan merasa gembira
Andai dapat bersama untuk selama-lama
Hanya untuk menyayangimu
Hanya untuk bercinta lagi
Andai engkau berduka
Aku yang pertama di sisi
Andai engkau bahagia
Akukan terus berdoa
Semoga suatu masa
Pintu hatimukan terbuka
Dan kita akan kembali
Bercinta lagi
Aku akan kembali
Walau jalan berliku
Kernaku kekasihmu
Hingga ke akhir hayat
Friday, July 14, 2006 @ 8:25 PM
Sebak di dada ku lihat wajah
Nina Karina si jelita
Menggulung kasih cinta pertama
Yang tersurat...hanya
Bisikan semalam
Kerasnya ombak menyisir pantai
Memaksa pasir untuk berubah
Tidak hati hati, adakah hatimu
Walaupun pedih...
Tanpa purnanma malam gelita
Tanpa rahsia hilanglah takhta
Tanpamu bisakah aku setia...
Oh Nina Karina
Oh lupakah dia
Cinta dan gelora
Kau hadiah untukku
Nina Karina si jelita
Menggulung kasih cinta pertama
Yang tersurat...hanya
Bisikan semalam
Kerasnya ombak menyisir pantai
Memaksa pasir untuk berubah
Tidak hati hati, adakah hatimu
Walaupun pedih...
Tanpa purnanma malam gelita
Tanpa rahsia hilanglah takhta
Tanpamu bisakah aku setia...
Oh Nina Karina
Oh lupakah dia
Cinta dan gelora
Kau hadiah untukku
@ 8:22 PM
Dinginnya di malam ini
Suasana pilu
Terkenang daku kembali
Sejarah silam
Setelah engkau pergi
Sepi hatiku
Terpadamalah api cinta
Musnah harapan
Mengapa engkau sanggup
Mengubah fikiran
Hanya kerana
Peristiwa itu
Kau hancurkan kota cinta
Yang kita bina bersama
Di masa
Yang lalu
Kini aku terus tersiksa
Oleh kepalsuan cintamu
Tinggallah aku sendiri
Menanggung derita ini
Setelah engkau pergi
Tertutup hatiku
Tak mungkin bercinta lagi
Biarku sendiri
Suasana pilu
Terkenang daku kembali
Sejarah silam
Setelah engkau pergi
Sepi hatiku
Terpadamalah api cinta
Musnah harapan
Mengapa engkau sanggup
Mengubah fikiran
Hanya kerana
Peristiwa itu
Kau hancurkan kota cinta
Yang kita bina bersama
Di masa
Yang lalu
Kini aku terus tersiksa
Oleh kepalsuan cintamu
Tinggallah aku sendiri
Menanggung derita ini
Setelah engkau pergi
Tertutup hatiku
Tak mungkin bercinta lagi
Biarku sendiri
Tuesday, July 11, 2006 @ 1:33 AM
have not been blogging fer
veri veri veri long time!
things have been veri bad...
stress in skul...
at home...
relationship stuffs....
haiz....
duno what to do...
confuse on what to revise first..
geog? chem? phy?
reali2 not sure....
Rafi have been veri fer awhile...
been boring when he didnt msg...
having conflicts sometimes..
but we tried our best to solve it...
yah...the more we wana let go,
the more stronger our love is..
hmph...dad have not been toping up ppaid fer me...
Rafi have been the one...
Mom have not been toking to me fer abt 2daes...
im quite confuse...
Rafi or my family...
Sis have been spending time with me...
so, duno when it will last..
now onli have my sis...
cant b counting on fwens oways...
i still have face to save kay...
hmph...have to live on my own rite now..
stay peace yarrr...
i love you all..
And i love him....
veri veri veri long time!
things have been veri bad...
stress in skul...
at home...
relationship stuffs....
haiz....
duno what to do...
confuse on what to revise first..
geog? chem? phy?
reali2 not sure....
Rafi have been veri fer awhile...
been boring when he didnt msg...
having conflicts sometimes..
but we tried our best to solve it...
yah...the more we wana let go,
the more stronger our love is..
hmph...dad have not been toping up ppaid fer me...
Rafi have been the one...
Mom have not been toking to me fer abt 2daes...
im quite confuse...
Rafi or my family...
Sis have been spending time with me...
so, duno when it will last..
now onli have my sis...
cant b counting on fwens oways...
i still have face to save kay...
hmph...have to live on my own rite now..
stay peace yarrr...
i love you all..
And i love him....
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